A Fresh Beginning, A Terrifying Start.

In a literal sense, right now there's gonna be a lot of fresh new beginnings - especially in the coming months.


I'm going to done high school.
I made an account with Blogspot.
My perceptions on things are changing. At least I hope it is.

I plan on changing for the better. Not for the worse.
Also, I might be accomplish some of my ambitions.
So let's see how it turns out. :3



It opened my eyes. It really did.
My perception about Polish people is dramatically changing, I now want to learn Polish. The language seems really pretty. Plus my Grandma would be so proud of me.
If all goes as planned then I'll learn more languages on top of that.
Such as: Japanese, French, Italian, Catalan, Qwetchwa, (Language of the Inca's and I know thats it's spelled incorrectly) Amarayaen, (Again, spelling is off.)
German, Dutch, Arabic, maybe some others?

Hopefully I'll succeed in some of those.
Maybe none of the native languages of South America.

I'm afraid of what's out there. After fucking up my life so bad. I don't even know what I want to be, and whether I should try, or not upgrade my marks to go into post secondary.
Whether it's more reasonable for me to move over to Europe and do schooling over there, hoping that the philosophy of schooling over there is completely different then it is over here.
Become a translator over there or something.
Or if I do choose to stay here for awhile, then to study something with art.
Become a Fashion Magazine editor, or even a model.

I hate how things haven't fully formed for me. I'm afraid that I'm gonna spend the rest of my life trying to figure out what I want to do with myself, what will make me happy. Theres even the chance of me wanting to become a writer. But I dunno.

The thing that really discourages me is that, I haven't really done anything like most people, with their spare time. Where they practise their skill, or pass time enjoying their hobby. While I'm here, vegetating in front of my computer. Hopefully during my year off school, I'll find something that I quite enjoy doing. Which will turn into my profession, later in life. Or at least to help discover it.