Blargh.

I'm quite annoyed by my bout of insomnia. Or pseudo-insomnia as I like to think of it. Or I guess I don't really have insomnia, just a really screwed up sleeping schedule that starts off earlier than most. I go to sleep between 9pm and 11pm then I sleep till, 4am till 6am? I feel that if I were to go to Montreal right now that I wouldn't have a problem adjusting with the time difference. But oh well what can I do, right?

I really need to get my shit together and soon. I really should apply at the Banff Springs, and I really want too start reading more. I have 3 or 4 books that I started reading and just put down and never picked up. Also I have a box of books along with a shelf of books that I need to begin, and finish reading.
Before reading I really need to find the missing song files on my iTunes. Get rid of duplicates, and songs that I don't want anymore. Also I need to clean my closet. Which shouldn't take too long to do.

Today's my last day painting my cousins room. Which I'm excited for since I really hate painting, since the paint fumes aren't good for my lungs (asthma).
I need to buy my friend a Christmas present soon, if they have it still.
On top of that I want to buy a shirt from Quiksilver.

I really need to get new shoes. Since mine are getting old and gross. :(

In New York ~

I really enjoy this song. Makes me feel somewhat better.
Once I get a piano, I'll hopefully learn how to play this song on the piano.

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Now playing: "Empire State of Mind" Jay-Z | Alicia Keys [OFFICIAL VIDEO]
via FoxyTunes

I might have to give in, and get a job at McDonalds.
Hopefully early shifts. :|
I don't want to work there. It's the last place I want to get a job. But I may just have too.

I have a new YouTube channel. Where I'm probably going to do replies to peoples video's. Maybe cover videos. Also, clothing or shopping hauls. :3

Waking up at 3am

Isn't a lot of fun. I'm bored haha. I woke up, had a pack of blackberries (see it's a sign, I'm meant to get a blackberry pearl! :P), then later I had a giant bowl of Lucky Charms. Then at 8ish, I got bored and hungry so I fried some pirogies then I wanted some raspberries the first pack I grabbed were all moldy and gross, so I grabbed the second one. Noticed that they were really squishy and gross. So I decided to blend them and make a milkshake! Which lead to me prying open a ginseng bottle so I could have a shot of ginseng. Threw in some frozen mangoes and blended it.

I'm honestly going to become a cow very soon if I don't find something to keep me busy.
The songs that I've been wanting to post on here for a bit are:
EDIT: I tried to put the videos up, but they came in assorted sizes and were stretching the page, so I decided to remove them. :/ It doesn't really matter since no one here reads my blogs. So meow.

Dreamland - Emilie Simone
It's a really pretty song, sung by a French singer.

Deep Sleep - Nabiha.
This one I love, since I really want to sleep most of the time, but I can't haha. That song is my life pretty much.

Le Choix - Cylia
I don't know why I'm attracted to French music with piano. It sounds soo pretty.

Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) - Florence and The Machine [Sugababes Cover]
Really pretty cover, the original is delicious too. Hahaha.
I hope I did that right. In other words, Sugababes did a cover of Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) by Florence and the Machine.

Don't you love in vain

I've been wanting to write a blog for the past three days. I started, then got distracted or unmotivated.

There's been things that I've been wanting to get on "paper" or online I guess.
For example if I do manage to save up the money I personally think will be required, then I shall be able once I move out there, do yoga in the morning, work, then either have dance class in the evenings or take evening French classes. That's what I've been wanting to write in so long. On top of all of that, after French class I could either go out and get drunk, or work out! Which I really need to start doing. Otherwise I'm gonna become fat. Or just really grossed shaped. Hopefully starting today I'll do some home exercises that I can easily do here.

What else to write...

I really can't wait till my sister 'grows' up a bit more maturity wise. Also, I really hope she'll be able to come and visit me once I move out there. It'll be quite easy to get around with her, since I'll be living in downtown or near downtownish so we'll be able to walk places. Find and buy clothes for her for cheap! <3 Plus I'll be able to make her little things and mail them out to her.

I'm going to have to write stuff down as a reminder, and motivation so that I can cross it off.

I really want to learn another language rather than French. French is fine and dandy, but stupidly complicated. Japanese maybe?

I think I'm going to make a new youtube account, change the name of this account. Kind of give myself a whole new makeoveresque type thing. And ya. There's more that I'm going to add in a bit I guess.

Ooo and I found a clothes rack for cheap! $19.99 at Ikea <3
Makes me happy.

I've gotta find my place

"Just want to be happy."

I really enjoy Leona Lewis' new album Echo.
I can really relate to what she's singing lol. Even though most music is pretty generic these days. Oh well. It makes me happy.

I'm going to try and find myself a new calender, mark the middle of March with "Start packing!" Then last day of March, or maybe the 20th, "GET THE FUCK OUT, ASAP!" Buy my plane ticket and never to return. Unless theirs some sort of family emergency or a few years from now. I just want to start living. Since I don't consider this to be living.

Monday I'm applying at Starbucks, Wild Flour, and some other place? Gap again maybe.
That way hopefully I'll have some money to start putting away. Then by Boxing Day weekend, or before New Years I'll buy myself some clothes. Since I am in dire need of new clothes. Tons of new clothes. I need to give my wardrobe a major face lift so to say. I need to add a few things to my wish list haha.

Also I need to set up some sort of goal with how much I'll need to save up for emergency wise, just in case I'm unable to get a job there right away.
Multiply it by 3 months.
$ 600 / month for rent.
$ 100 / utilities.
$ 75 / cell phone.
---- / total.
$2925 + Safety Deposit. ):

Then I need to save up for,
$ 535 / New phone.
$1500 / New furniture.
$ 150 / GIANT BOTTLE OF GIN. Bombay Sapphire.
$2000 / New clothes if possible for me.
$ 500 / Ticket to Montreal.
----- / Total
$4685

All together the grand total would be - $7610
So in other words I want to save up $10,000.

It seems so unrealistic at the moment since I don't have a job.
I'll probably have to get 2 jobs, and save. I won't be able to splurge.
Even though it seems really unrealistic at the moment
Then after I get a job I'll have to head over to RBC and do some banking nigs!
I know for sure that my parents are gonna pay for my food. <3 Also hopefully for my Metro card. Also hopefully my parents will help me accomplish some of the things I want off my wish list. :]

On top of all of that I need to get my passport, Canadian, so that I can travel down to New York for a few days when I live in Montreal. Find those bargain basement sales and buy myself designer clothes. Since New York is the Fashion capital of the States. <3 What I can't wait for is to be able to take a train down there. Since I haven't ridden in a train since my last excursion. That was when I was in grade 5, so in 2002~

Flakiness

Personal Space:
I hate how wishy washy or flaky I am when it comes with my future plans. I guess that's how it is for many people. If I'm able to get a job and save up dramatically in two/three months I'm just gonna peace it out of Banff. Just for the sake of my health, otherwise my anxiety will take over and a certain extent will die inside of me. Since after all I may not be able to go to Peru due to my braces. It sucks but oh well, it was never in my original plan.

As Branden mentioned, there's no use in bitching and complaining about being in Banff. Ya it helps alleviate some stress and angst. But it doesn't help whatsoever with the whole leaving Banff situation.



Hopefully things will start picking up here in town. I should probably change the objectives on my resume and start applying at places so I at least have a better chance of getting a job. Rather than sitting here complaining and waiting. Maybe this time I'll be able to get two jobs, and to pass time I would be taking piano lessons. Since I really want to learn how to play piano so that I can do Regina Spektor covers, along with other fun diddys.

Also on that hopeful note, I think it would be easier for me to move within the country rather than to a different country in a different continent.

PS. I hate how the one thing that I enjoyed most, sleeping, has been ruined by yours truly. Now I have pseudo-insomnia since I don't want to believe that I actually have it. I doubt I do. I hope I don't. I'll find out later I guess.

PPS. Another thing that's bothering me is that I make myself to do lists which I never finish in the time that I plan on finishing them. Now I have a new to do list, finishing the books that I've started reading but then stopped for whatever reason. Start reading the books my dad lent me about World Mythology, read about the Incas since I borrowed/stole some books from my mom. Read up on the philosophies of India, what their all about. On top of all of that read the misc. fictional books that I have. Also watch the DVD's about Yogism.

Art Corner ~
Hahaha, I feel so tacky doing that. Oh well.
My plans on making my sister her headband was a bust. Since I went over to the Dollar Store and all they had was shit ribbon. Kind of that thin ribbon that you would find with fake Christmas presents. So I'll have to wait to go into Canmore to try and find some or Calgary where I would have a better chance.

With my friends getting tattoos this past month I really want to get some. I have for awhile, but now I have envisioned my new tattoo. I've been planning on getting the Virgo symbol on the back of my neck but instead of just getting that, get the female sign and inside the circle get the symbol. I'll do a rough sketch of it once I get home later. On top of that I want a tattoo of the Eye of Horus, Udjat(sp?).

Also I want to start painting/sketching things that I want to paint or draw. I really hope I can motivate myself that way I can keep myself busy for a few weeks.

Louis Vuitton - Grunge (Positive Change!)

I really want that scarf/shawl. It's so pretty. But really costly. $745 (US. I'm assuming.) I love Louis Vuitton blog. Official Louis Vuitton website.

I finally went back to the library since there was this article, in Teen Vogue - August 2009, about how it's affecting young fashionista's with the recession. How their finding designer clothes for cheap. I don't really remember the article, but a girl mentioned this website (haven't checked it out yet) Wear Today, Gone Tomorrow. Where you can swap clothes with other girls. Also, maybe guys. Not sure. Since I mentioned, haven't checked it out.

PS. I decided/got inspired, kind of thanks to Branden, to change how I blog. Instead of whining, bitching and complaining about how life sucks in Banff I'm start writing about little fashion tidbits that I enjoy type of thing. If that makes any sense. I know people won't/don't read my blogs. But whatever haha. So mostly it's gonna be positive blurbs about my life. If I'm able to find the right things tomorrow I'll even start making simple little things. Hopefully it'll work out. Which will lead to me making a DeviantArt account again to show off the process. Or to show off the finished product. We'll see.

Synopsis: New blog format. Positive blurbs about my life, fashion tidbits, and something dictionary definitions!